Sunday, August 2, 2009

Grieving in God

With each passing day since Micah's death, the weeping decreases and the pain increases. I think that weeping allows us to release emotions. We want to weep but cannot. Instead, we are physically ill and we have no energy to even make decent conversation with well-meaning friends and family.

We need God's mercy in our hearts right now. "And the Peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus." Phil. 4:7. I don't know how a nonbeliever could grieve through this. If it were all up to chance, if God was not in control, if it were up to humans, then Micah's death would be beyond comprehension in its tradgedy. While I still don't understand "The Why," I trust in God's promise that His Peace will, day-by-day, guard me against unbelief in this darkest hour of my life.


  1. I'm so sorry for your loss. My heart just sunk when I heard. It just isn't fair that you, the Lundquists or any family should have to go through this. I'm sorry. You are in our prayers.
    Mindy Molin

  2. Hi, I'm a friend of Steve Duncan's, who just posted this blog on Facebook. I want to tell you (impossibly in this blog comment, I know) how sad I feel with you. I cannot imagine the pain, though I know the great love you felt for your son. I know it is an awful pain, probably the worst of your life. Even here at work, I wept at your blog posts. Thank you for sharing.

    Some friends of mine lost their 2-year-old son to a rare genetic disease, and they grieve their loss to this day, on a blog and website:

    May you grieve well, and find solace eventually.